got such thing one meh? can like and hate one person at the same time?
why do i keep thinking 'if only she isnt't here, i won't be feeling the pain'...? she's so loveable, yet i can feel the hatred..why? i feel like her shadow...no. actually i feel like everybody's shadow. 全世界你还在吗？你还爱我吗？why is it that i always feel so bad about myself?
ok. out of point cannot tahan already!!
hmm. today quite embarassing. i was just closing my eyes in the bus, and i thought to myself 'still got some time before reach school' so i continue closing my eyes (NOTE: I WAS NOT SLEEPING) then i close close close, all of a sudden, i feel this tap, and i opened my eyes, and all the st margs ppl all going down already. 靠！！
quarelled with mother this morning. cos she saw the words at the back of my calculator. and she was questioning me about it. and obviously she was looking at my stuff. and i got pissed, started screaming, and throwing toilet paper. and this is partially why 我不爽自己
why did i do that?! why did i give a cheesy smile to someone who doesn't know me? i was sms-ing somebody..why did i look up?! why did i appear to know her?! i *do* know her, but she has no idea who i am..DAMN. and i see her in the bus every morning. i think she thinks that im a stalker. wHy mUsT i Do sUcH a sIlLy tHiNg!!!11!!!?!?!?!11/!