woo a sense of accomplishment. i finally did up my diary 2006 ( a little late yes i know) XD
im getting busier and busier..busy to the extend i can't update everyday..school's been rather fine..as usual, uneventful. well...and i have been catching up with my other friends a lot..
yes, and my overused phrase, i realized, is "why" because i use that all the time. :| i have lots of dramas to complete..why, but i have no time! gosh..i really do wonder how come my secondary school life is so packed..
i have kept all my feelings and whatnot to myself this whole week..i guess its really not too good..(ppl said i looked DEAD?! wtf?!) and i guess i didnt wanna offend anyone..i was really annoyed by everyone at one point of time (tis crazy)..:S
i need to update this more often..perphaps with more pix? yes? ^_^
jyan! here...this means a lot a lot to me XD my friend called melodie gave it to me on valentine's day. i've kept it safe and snug yes...i treasure it a lot..i guess im just hoping it will work the same way to our friendship..3 years in different classes, and she said "even like that we can still be very good friends" and we have already been drifting. its too obvious. we are like one of the friends you see who only catch up with once in a [long] while. so, i was really touched about the gift..even though she gave everyone almost the same thing (shatter)..i gave her a rose..and 4 passport sized photos of me! :)
oh gosh..i just realized my life sounds boring to the extreme..UGh...im going for crescents's fun fair! i managed to contact several of my primary school friends! woo XD
i shall update because its been a week already. school has been basically very uneventful. i don't know why the teachers i dislike are well-liked by my classmates, whereas the teachers i like, are disliked by others. wierd. really wierd.
its really boring..and i guess i will quote from my ex-best-friend "i am hardly smiling or being happy this whole week". i guess she is being too naive..i don't understand her. i see her everyday, she's always hanging around with her friends AND laughing SO loudly. plus when i was with her the other time, she was laughing a lot. so therefore "hardly smiling" is definitely out.
NPCC day training really drained away all my energy. not that it was so difficult..but still..:S
my mum!! stop annoying me!!! ugh :S she really irritates me..i still love her i know..but at times like this..i really feel like stabbing her heart :S UGH
i screwed chinese. everything. the mo xie, the tests, the gong han. everything. supposed to pass up gong han on friday but FORGOT. ahhh!
one piece of good news? the whole week while i was on the bus to school i managed to find a seat!!! yay me!! normally its so hard to find a seat but ME, -me- i found it?!
yesterday i was searching valentines day's pressies like mad, O.K? and my friend pang seh-ed me for some other friend of hers. humph >:( so i was left alone walking walking....i spent like 4 hours in kinokuniya...shopping alone isn't that great..
i need $35 the denim berms $80- project shop brood bros bag $60- new headphones ..bleahaaha :(
getting contact lenses today! yay XD see..my blog's getting happier every moment..
This three days felt really, really, long...damn damn damn damn damn! i felt quite stupid during school today...i made so many stupid mistakes...And, i was at the United Squares food court, and i [carelessly] left my wallet at the tray. thankfully...(Ok, THANKFULLY), i was about to flag a cab and realized my wallet was missing..i had to go B.A.C.K..to retrieve it..
yes. amd it was so hard to get a cab, so i had to take the MRT (ugh..i hate crowded MRTs) to Bishan and cab home. NPCC Day training was like O-K, really, just O-K..really..my seniors have no sense of humour, my ex-bestie has a really really weird sense of humour..she was telling some really, lame, jokes (most probably influenced by her friendinclass) and i was sorta laughing...and..yeah...
OH YES, during the bus journey today, i sort of choked on my saliva, and DAMN! it was so bloody quiet..i didnt dare to cough loudly..so i tried to supress it..and i even teared Ok..so much for attempting to cover a cough..<-- that's also one of the stupid things i've done.
Another thing, i made a new friend some time last year..but because i was being really childish and.. (OK FINE, i was really high)..so i kind of made her think im damn annoying (thats what i think)..and now we're in the same class..and erm..we dont talk..and thats really weird..cos she did really talk very nicely to me on the first day..and..and..i was kind of sick that day..so i gently pushed her away..and i bet she thought i hated her..which i don't..i was trying to say I'M SICK!!!! and everything just got very wrong...so now..we just..uhh.. say hi sometimes? we did talk on really personal things on MSN, but thats MSN, in reality i just find it so hard to talk to her..and uhhh..i feel really childish and immature and stupid about this..<-- another thing that made me feel stupid
oh damn..im starting to sound like one of my friends..who update once in a while..and does really long posts..which i never really do read...i just take the gist out of the whole thing..its really too long..so well..im really to busy..and i really love this blog..because i can say anything and it doesnt matter...
alright..let me think..oh yes..i never really did tell anyone..but im really scared of fierce people..those who SHOUT really loudly and say "DO YOU UNDERSTAND OR NOT"..really im scared deep inside (im a coward)..but i daren't admit it..which is also why i do not look forward to my CCA..because the seniors never encourages us..and i always feel stupid in the end..and today i made a stupid mistake..(AGAIN)..oh boy...
jeez...there's a CME meeting for group project tmr..and my group is really, Ok, NICE and RESPONSIBLE but the problem is..uhh..i already got used to the last year pace..which was to leave things to the last minute and make up something creative..we always did that and score pretty well..uhhh..forget it..i will just be nice to my group members
one last stupid thing i did, i tripped while boarding the MRT, and this woman was staring..i felt so stupid...i feel so clumsy..and everything just doesn't feel right for me...like..uhh..whatever i do is just so..dumb.. hahahahahha ok i have to constantly remind myself NOT to take things too seriously...