whee! I am back :) i'm so glad so many events are over (...atc, dots command, pk course). -sigh- the only thing i'm dreading right now is CCA. ehhh.
mmmm. i'm so caught up with school activities i kind of forgotten about fangirling *o* jajajaj, it's okay, i'm going on a drama marathon this sunday/monday (youth day :D)! shall catch up with episodes of kurosagi, attention please, love magician, tokyo juliet, gakuen heaven, and...whatever variety shows i've downloaded but not touched yet ^^
hmm. school hasn't gotten any better. but it's okay. we're changing our seating arrangements tmr. i'm not really affected by that...
....okay fine, i am. i just hope that my teacher gives me some seat at the back row, preferably cornerish back row. for the past two years, every time we change our seats, i'll end up in the front two rows. ughhh.
anyway, i'll try to stay positive and not be such a pessimist (brainwashed by dad D:), i'll work hard! ~~>__<~~
i'm upset over the fact that...a very good friend of my good friend is angry at me. i was doubtful about it, until just a few minutes ago..when i read something which made me come to a conclusion that she is, angry at me. well...i never liked her, neither do i hate her..she's just the type i'll 'forcefully' hang out with, especially since she's my good friend's good friend. but apparently she got angry at both my good friend and i a few days back then. i thought that i was gonna be fine since she seemed more angry towards my good friend. but turns out, they got along well again. to think my good friend was complaining about how unreasonable she was. the next moment she's fine with her again. what is this? i shall not continue. bahhhashja.
got such thing one meh? can like and hate one person at the same time?
why do i keep thinking 'if only she isnt't here, i won't be feeling the pain'...? she's so loveable, yet i can feel the hatred..why? i feel like her shadow...no. actually i feel like everybody's shadow. 全世界你还在吗？你还爱我吗？why is it that i always feel so bad about myself?
ok. out of point cannot tahan already!!
hmm. today quite embarassing. i was just closing my eyes in the bus, and i thought to myself 'still got some time before reach school' so i continue closing my eyes (NOTE: I WAS NOT SLEEPING) then i close close close, all of a sudden, i feel this tap, and i opened my eyes, and all the st margs ppl all going down already. 靠！！
quarelled with mother this morning. cos she saw the words at the back of my calculator. and she was questioning me about it. and obviously she was looking at my stuff. and i got pissed, started screaming, and throwing toilet paper. and this is partially why 我不爽自己
why did i do that?! why did i give a cheesy smile to someone who doesn't know me? i was sms-ing somebody..why did i look up?! why did i appear to know her?! i *do* know her, but she has no idea who i am..DAMN. and i see her in the bus every morning. i think she thinks that im a stalker. wHy mUsT i Do sUcH a sIlLy tHiNg!!!11!!!?!?!?!11/!